Sometimes I look at my peers and I get extremely jealous.
It seems like other people can do all sorts of things that I am not capable of.
I really wish that I could be more tenacious and strong. I know that my personality is rather bold and I have a lot to offer the world, but my body doesn’t follow through with the physical merits that I need. For instance, I wish that I could simply leave the house without worrying about my allergies ruining everything. I have been dealing with severe allergies for as long as I can remember. If you are lucky enough to breathe easily, know that you have a truly fortunate experience compared to what I deal with every day. I can’t remember a time without extreme respiratory distress and discomfort. Because of my allergies, I have to pay a lot of attention to my indoor air quality. I can’t visit my friends, stay at a hotel, or even attend a nice dinner without being concerned about the quality of the indoor air and air handling devices there. If there is a subpar heating, cooling, and ventilation system in use I will know about it within 5 minutes of entering the space. My lungs will start itching, my eyes will turn bright red, and I will start sneezing uncontrollably if the air filtration devices are not well maintained. I can’t tell you how many times I have had to leave a party early because the heating and cooling system was poorly maintained. I have literally slept outside in the car because the hotel HVAC system was filthy. When my wife was giving birth to her first son I couldn’t even stay in the room because the hospital had an air purification system failure that night. If you don’t have allergies, thank your lucky stars.